Hello, My name is Lily, I ...
Updated: Nov 14, 2021
Hello, my name is Lily, I'm an addict.
I'm addicted to cigarettes and coffee.
My name is Lily, I am an over sharer.
I am a people pleaser.
I am an over scheduler.
I am a masochist, with no sadist to tend to my needs.
I am an exhibitionist
I have eating issues, but not all the time.
I have daddy issues, but am working hard to over come this.
Name's Lily, I am a trauma survivor, but, and it's a big but, I am aware.
I am grateful for the pain I endured, it has made me many things.
I am grateful that the coping mechanisms I found for the damage my unresolved trauma, has not led to a need for prescribed antidepressants, anti-psychotics or heavy duty, long term pain medications.
I acknowledge that my trauma isn't so profound or so compounded, so chronic or so complex, that it hasn't resulted in me being addicted to unregulated, illegal street drugs.
I am grateful that my trauma has not affected my nervous system so badly, that I lost my sense of belonging, and that I don't feel unworthy of having a physical home and roots.
I am at peace with the fact my unresolved trauma led to relational issues as opposed to being addicted or being scared to exist in the world.
I acknowledge my plentiful privileges.
I acknowledge my mother's unconditional love as something that truly saved my life on multiple occasions, starting with me being in the womb, and continues to this day.
I acknowledge my family's unconditional love, even from the other side of the world.
I acknowledge the unconditional love from, and for, my friends.
I acknowledge my past, my present and my future.
I understand that I have still much personal work left to do.
I thank the Universe everyday for sending me the people I needed to meet, who needed to meet me.
And until YOUR house is in order, don't be judging mine. I don't judge yours.